This song has been on my mind a lot lately. This beautiful version by Kris Allen was played at my sweet mother-in-laws viewing. This so makes me think of her and how much she loves people...she really wanted everyone to feel her love especially her family. There are times where I just think of how much I loved seeing her smile, and how much she made feel important and part of the family, and I can't help but cry a little. I really miss her and I think of her everyday.
So this past week has been Crazy with a capital C. Not only did I work a full 5 day week but I job shadowed 12 hours, and well we added a new addition to our family. It would be fun if it was a kid but I'm happy with what we got... a new little puppy! He is an American Bulldog and is about six weeks. I've never had a dog, and to be honest I never really wanted one but I'm glad my husband talked me into it because I'm already in love!
He is a good little puppy. Likes to play and likes to cuddle when he's tired. Sometimes I'm sad that we have to leave him in his kennel for like 8 hours while we are at work...I hope he still loves us despite that. We definitely love him and want him to be happy!
So I've decided even though I hate the snow (or should I say driving in it), I still love the month of December, and I'm just realizing that it really is one of my favorite months of the whole year. I love that one Holiday can bring so much family together...it's the little moments that make it special. I've already had a few I can think of this year. Every Sunday we go to my parents house to eat dinner and last Sunday me and my sister put up the tree, as well as the other decorations. Jesse who was playing Call of Duty on the Xbox was not to thrilled that my sister and I were blasting Christmas music, and Casey was not all that happy that we were blasting it in his room, :) good thing we didn't care. It was fun spending time with my sister, because I don't get to do that too often. Another thing that I have loved this year happens each Sunday too. Jesse and my Dad have made a tradition to watch a Clint Eastwood movie every Sunday after dinner, so me, my mom, and my sister decided we would watch a Christmas Movie while they enjoy their manly movie. Oh and yes you guessed it those Hallmark Christmas movies, the ones that make you cry, those are what we watch and well...WE LOVE IT! I'm so excited for the rest of this month. One thing that I can't forget to mention about this month is how I'm reminded of how great the gospel is during this time when we celebrate His birth. I've really been struggling with reading my scriptures....life seems so crazy sometimes and I know that's not an excuse...but this month I have made a goal to read my Scriptures every night. Of course this goal will go beyond the month of December, but I know this will be a great time for me to become closer to the Lord. I want him to know I love him, and that I have a testimony of the gospel. I don't know what I would do with out it. The last thing I want to mention is how much I love and miss my mother-in-law I know this Christmas won't be the easiest without her. I miss her warm smile, miss her love for the holiday, I miss her love for the gospel, and I just miss her period. The one thing that will make this better is knowing that she is in Heaven watching over us, celebrating with us, and most of all I know she is happy!
These pictures here pictures of my beautiful mother-in-law. A courageous, loving, daughter of God ;One that raised six children including my amazing husband. I would just like to share a few memories I have of her. I remember the first time I met her, it was one of Jesse and I's first dates, and I was in the car while he ran in to get something from the house, and she came walking out. I was scared I hoped she'd approve of me. She smiled at me and said hi and my fear disappeared, she was so nice and friendly. The next thing that really sticks out to me is when I was at snow college. I was having a really hard time being away from my family and being away from Jesse. Jesse being the concerned boyfriend he was told his mom, and that night she called me to give me some words of encouragement. Although I don't remember exactly what was said i remember feeling loved, and feeling important she sure had a way of making everyone feel like that. Also at snow college she used to write me letters and send me pictures of Jesse, those letters always cheered me up. Then our wedding came along and I was so happy that she could be there; it was a time where she was feeling a little better and she had a good amount of hair...she was beautiful with or without hair, but I know it meant a lot to her to have it. Another fun thing I remembered was on the first mothers day we were married she gave us a outfit for, well, our future child ha ha. Although we laughed because we were no where near having a kid, it gave me comfort that we had something from her for our first child no matter when that would be. Later on for my birthday I was also lucky enough to receive a childrens book with her voice recorded in it. What a treasure that is going to be for our family. Something that I will always remember is planting flowers with her. I had the chance to do this with her twice, and she had such a love for it. It was amazing to hear all she new about flowers and how dedicated she was to taking care of them, just like her dedication to taking care of her family. There will never be a time where I look at a flower and not think of her. There are so many other things that I could talk about, but these are just a few of my favorite. I Love her and miss her a lot, its hard to think that my children won't get to meet her in this life, but I know she is with them now, and will get to be with them until they come to this earth. What an amazing person, and an amazing example, and what a lucky person I am to be able to be part of her eternal family.
Sometimes we don't realize how much one person can really make a difference in another persons life. Today was a good day for me I got up, got dressed, and went and ran some errands. My last stop happened to be the place where Jesse got my wedding ring. My ring has never been cleaned since we've been married and I also needed to get it re-dipped. When I walked in there was a man that came to greet me. He helped me and was very nice from the moment I came in. By the time I was done giving him my information and getting the receipt so I could come pick my ring up next week we started talking and he said something that I will never forget. He told me that when customers come in he can tell what kind of person they are by their countenance and that my husband is lucky to have me as a wife. I'm not telling you this because I think I am an amazing person or wife, nor am I telling this to brag, but I'm telling you this because its proof that there really are good people in this world. Sometimes I think there is so much rudeness and cruelness in the world, and than I meet someone like this man and I am reminded that there is just as much good. I know it was something small that he did for me, and maybe I'm making a big deal out of it, but it made my day, made me smile, and it made me feel important. All of us try our best and usually feel good about it but it's so nice to actually hear that you are doing alright from someone else.
Right now things are hard, trying, and well to be honest not really enjoyable. I know there is so much to be thankful for, but I think it's time for me to write those things down...just to remind me and others that even though there is bad there is always good!!!!
I'm Thankful For....
Kyle and Allyx for letting us stay with them
The knowledge that families can be together forever
The ability to cry
D&C 24:8 Be apatient in bafflictions, for thou shalt have many; but cendure them, for, lo, I am with thee, even unto the dend of thy days.
I was married March 20th, 2010 in the Salt Lake temple to my best friend! Jesse and I met at his mission homecoming and from then on we were together. We love our family and friends, and are thankful we found each other!